The girl with Masquerade
Whispers
I lead, follow me
能不能不爱了?.. 因为爱太痛了. 我痛得快死了, 却无法把你忘了 ..
Friday, 27 November 2009. 12:22 pm
26th's luvs .
What's been w me lately ?.. tearing like shyt for nights . Every place i used t go is filled w my memories for you . Even my room .. Those memories .. where you skipped schl for me , rush down from simei just t get me smth t eat & come down t my house . I gave you a cold shoulder whenever im moodless . But me myself , didnt realise i've fallen into deep luv for you .& i alr cant live w/o you . Still glad that at least i didnt make you unhappy for the whole 2months .. at least most of the times , we're happy right ? im afraid t lose you . Thinking back , how shy we're .. till now , we're v close alr , untill the feelings faded ..
Living in a world filled w sadness & regret now though i want t change . I clearly understand you , just that i didnt want t express out .. I wouldnt tear infront of another guy again , I dontwant another guy t wipe away my tears . I know , what i've done is real bastard . But you know iluvyou , right ?.. I've no intention of hurting you . But if you dislike it , i wouldnt do tht again . Bcos my eyes are only on you now . What ridiculous thing i did was , the next day i still continue t go his house . Really , i slapped myself for doing that . Kill myself , can cigarettes or alchohol numb myself? swollen eyes .
Cried every corner of my house , even infront of th labtop . Still waiting for ur sms . & i found out that , you've changed .. so cold t me , like strangers . You even faded feelings for me .. its like a knife stab into my heart straight . Or maybe i deserve all this , that night was our 2nd month . You canot imagine how sad i was . I didnt blame you for being able t meet me up .
If you fade feelings for me , why would you jealous i go t his hse ytd ? Or it was you who lied t urself that you faded feelings for me , bcos i hurt you . No one can stand by me now . Its only 1 day , & you faded feelings for me .. how could it be ? I shouldnt have gone t hishouse , twice , knowing you'll be unhappy but you didnt express it out . You want freedom for me , you trust me . Just that you jealous , right?.. I did understand you ..
I seriously did nothing much there , only slack . plus there's alot ppl there , not only me & him . Didnt you know ?.. Sorry . I deleted everybody's sms , only left urs . I've put everything down . Remember last time ? You used t hurt me as well , i always will forgive you .. bcos i dontwant t lose you . Maybe ur luv for me , isnt like th luv i've for you . I couldnt amend my mistakes if you dont give a chance .. i've changed . Stop running fom the facts , like how i did . Tell yourself , its impossible for you t fade feelings in just 1 day right?..Impossible . Its bcos i've hurt you , you wanted t numb urself . I teared a million of tears , hoping you'll be back .
The feelings you have for me are still there , just that you've locked them up . Or maybe im saying all this t numb myself . If you really think you wouldnt be happy at all w me , i wouldnt force you .. As long as you're happy .. If everything could start afresh .. I promised not t go his hse anymore , even if you're letting me go . Fate brought us tgt . i'd never forget how warm ur hug is . How i wished i could see you later . I could've skip the wedding dinner for you . I didnt remove the standby note , i wonder if you have ..
我爱你 ,但你爱我吗 , 为什么我们变成这样 ..
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Sorry readers , i would be able t give you guys a proper post from tday onwards . Till i recover . Is this fate i wonder ? So many invitations today . 1st call , aunty called us t go her hse for a big feast . I rejected . 2nd call , from simin & co . I still rejected . 3rd call , kumpua dulan . A wedding dinner , i accepted . I dont wish t be alone in my house .. doing silly things i shouldnt be doing . Nobody's gonna care anymore anw . Havent been eating since last night till now , dinner breakfast & even lunch :) Cool . Lastly , i dont need sympathy or smth . So shut th fuck up :) Thanks .
26th's luvs .
What's been w me lately ?.. tearing like shyt for nights . Every place i used t go is filled w my memories for you . Even my room .. Those memories .. where you skipped schl for me , rush down from simei just t get me smth t eat & come down t my house . I gave you a cold shoulder whenever im moodless . But me myself , didnt realise i've fallen into deep luv for you .& i alr cant live w/o you . Still glad that at least i didnt make you unhappy for the whole 2months .. at least most of the times , we're happy right ? im afraid t lose you . Thinking back , how shy we're .. till now , we're v close alr , untill the feelings faded ..
Living in a world filled w sadness & regret now though i want t change . I clearly understand you , just that i didnt want t express out .. I wouldnt tear infront of another guy again , I dontwant another guy t wipe away my tears . I know , what i've done is real bastard . But you know iluvyou , right ?.. I've no intention of hurting you . But if you dislike it , i wouldnt do tht again . Bcos my eyes are only on you now . What ridiculous thing i did was , the next day i still continue t go his house . Really , i slapped myself for doing that . Kill myself , can cigarettes or alchohol numb myself? swollen eyes .
Cried every corner of my house , even infront of th labtop . Still waiting for ur sms . & i found out that , you've changed .. so cold t me , like strangers . You even faded feelings for me .. its like a knife stab into my heart straight . Or maybe i deserve all this , that night was our 2nd month . You canot imagine how sad i was . I didnt blame you for being able t meet me up .
If you fade feelings for me , why would you jealous i go t his hse ytd ? Or it was you who lied t urself that you faded feelings for me , bcos i hurt you . No one can stand by me now . Its only 1 day , & you faded feelings for me .. how could it be ? I shouldnt have gone t hishouse , twice , knowing you'll be unhappy but you didnt express it out . You want freedom for me , you trust me . Just that you jealous , right?.. I did understand you ..
I seriously did nothing much there , only slack . plus there's alot ppl there , not only me & him . Didnt you know ?.. Sorry . I deleted everybody's sms , only left urs . I've put everything down . Remember last time ? You used t hurt me as well , i always will forgive you .. bcos i dontwant t lose you . Maybe ur luv for me , isnt like th luv i've for you . I couldnt amend my mistakes if you dont give a chance .. i've changed . Stop running fom the facts , like how i did . Tell yourself , its impossible for you t fade feelings in just 1 day right?..
The feelings you have for me are still there , just that you've locked them up . Or maybe im saying all this t numb myself . If you really think you wouldnt be happy at all w me , i wouldnt force you .. As long as you're happy .. If everything could start afresh .. I promised not t go his hse anymore , even if you're letting me go . Fate brought us tgt . i'd never forget how warm ur hug is . How i wished i could see you later . I could've skip the wedding dinner for you . I didnt remove the standby note , i wonder if you have ..
我爱你 ,但你爱我吗 , 为什么我们变成这样 ..
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Sorry readers , i would be able t give you guys a proper post from tday onwards . Till i recover . Is this fate i wonder ? So many invitations today . 1st call , aunty called us t go her hse for a big feast . I rejected . 2nd call , from simin & co . I still rejected . 3rd call , kumpua dulan . A wedding dinner , i accepted . I dont wish t be alone in my house .. doing silly things i shouldnt be doing . Nobody's gonna care anymore anw . Havent been eating since last night till now , dinner breakfast & even lunch :) Cool . Lastly , i dont need sympathy or smth . So shut th fuck up :) Thanks .
psb: whts is bwg?
-As replied as xiaomint . bwg=bo wei gong: Nothing t say or speechless .
X.MINT: psb : bo wei gong as in nth t say thanks sist (:
-Welcome :)
2263423's: Babyluv , link me up :D . Luvyou .
-K , luvyou :)
wei zhen: helos! konichiwa's! dont give up, jiayou, we must show we are stronger than boys.! :D relax abit. dont think too much okays?!^^
-I cant .. ._.
♥ Glenis: Relinkkkkk !
-Sure .
Calidear: Sist,cheerup :) Time will heals everything , just keep occupy yourself like going out with friends or keep your mind busy . Trust me, you won't cry and think so much than before Takecare .
-I cant , bcos every corner is filled w memories .
Hatred-: Hi :D dun sad sad liao lah , :D gotta let it go ... no point living ur life torturing urself ... u dun let go , how are u gonna be happy ? Consider wad i say:D if u bored :D msg mi 82374409 :D if u wanna know how i know abt u and ur stead quarrel msg mi :D dhen i tell u
-I wanted t , but i cant seem t let go . I dont need t be happy , cos i dont deserve as well .
Labels: Full of regrets .
Remorseful ,
Sunday, 20 September 2009. 9:49 am
Hello readers ! Me eating mango birthday cake later on , jealous ?!:P LOL . Ahem , im hungry now -.- Yesterday , slept for like 12hrs . Well , actually i got woken up by my dad @ around 9plus . He dislike me sleeping till late -.- Zzz , end up i complained to mom . & mom starts to rant at him , saying that i rarely sleep till late cos of studies ..
Dots , & i slept till 11plus . Wokeup awhile to chat w Yeeling & Keyin on msn , went back to sleep again till 5plus . Prepare everything , all of them kept rushing me when i still havent even makeup etc -.- Pissed , wore light makeup & headband , off i go ! :D
Reached jurongeast , shop around & headed to eat . Ate 2 plates of rice & i still havent have enough . Called for another bowl of rice , & my sister damn haolian can anot ! 'Jieh , i also want another bowl share w me' Zzz . Sist bought a hairband while i bought a .. pair of fakeeyelashes & a mask!!
Sist & i used 'eye message' to convey some message to each other during dinner . She stare at me & the plastic bag , so did i . It last very long , untill my mom stopped us . Well , we're actually argueing w each other using eye contact , who should take that plastic bag w our items later on . Laughs (:
Took mrt back , the rest of them headed to jp while i go home alone first . Chanced upon some sec & pri schlmates then bablablablah , home around 9plus .
Gonna go for revision tomorrow w sisters & sw (:
Hello readers ! Me eating mango birthday cake later on , jealous ?!:P LOL . Ahem , im hungry now -.- Yesterday , slept for like 12hrs . Well , actually i got woken up by my dad @ around 9plus . He dislike me sleeping till late -.- Zzz , end up i complained to mom . & mom starts to rant at him , saying that i rarely sleep till late cos of studies ..
Dots , & i slept till 11plus . Wokeup awhile to chat w Yeeling & Keyin on msn , went back to sleep again till 5plus . Prepare everything , all of them kept rushing me when i still havent even makeup etc -.- Pissed , wore light makeup & headband , off i go ! :D
Reached jurongeast , shop around & headed to eat . Ate 2 plates of rice & i still havent have enough . Called for another bowl of rice , & my sister damn haolian can anot ! 'Jieh , i also want another bowl share w me' Zzz . Sist bought a hairband while i bought a .. pair of fakeeyelashes & a mask!!
Sist & i used 'eye message' to convey some message to each other during dinner . She stare at me & the plastic bag , so did i . It last very long , untill my mom stopped us . Well , we're actually argueing w each other using eye contact , who should take that plastic bag w our items later on . Laughs (:
Took mrt back , the rest of them headed to jp while i go home alone first . Chanced upon some sec & pri schlmates then bablablablah , home around 9plus .
Gonna go for revision tomorrow w sisters & sw (:
Wes: Ahha!Lol hi :D
-Eh idiot !^^
Keyin ♥: erxin loh -.- cya (: we forgot to hug and cry ;X hahas monday uh he's back to me and you ! wootswoots. cya on mon uhuh. still thinkinggg.
-Hahaha , kk !<3 Archangel.: hello, just passing by, and oh, you are a very pretty girl :)
-Errr , no . Thanks for ur tag btw :)
JIaWei: Hii tag tag Relink wo xie xie=P
-Haha , kk ! Bu ke qi :D
Pinxuan.: the librarian damn qian bian der luh, hahs. x.x Tags!
-Yeah , quite . But thinking of it , i think she quite cute lor! HAHA
Vanessa,♥: Hellos kuku! Taggs link.
-Sure !(L)
HUIWEN;: Hellos (: taqqed ^^ Hellos.taqqed (:
-Helloeh ^^ Thanks .
Mr. lennn...: er... i mean i like u lol ...
-Err , diao ? Oh lols (:
Maddie: I monday not very free, probably going to friend's house to do project for PE dance routine-.- and you're damn photogenic! jealous! D: haha.
-Awwww , sad !!D: I not photogenic k -.- ..
she's AMANDA!': Laughs, guess what. I'm supposed to meet Anmearee today. She dua me.
-Laughs , nothing new actually .
Calidear: Hey sist. Told you so many times , you look better when you show your teeth out :) I'm serious :D Takecare :D
-Hahaha , k ! See, i took one photo w my teeth out JUST FOR YOU !:D tc too.
Labels: Full of regrets .