The girl with Masquerade
Whispers
I lead, follow me
Tongue tied
Friday, 15 June 2012. 11:53 pm
Ok, I officially hate blogger. I retyped this post thrice. Zzz. Couldn't decide on my post title either and change it for ten over times. Days been, okay. Finally done with 30 over pages of business marketing proposal... Days where you stay up late till midnight to complete work is, hell. One month ago or so, I've spent quite a few days with classmates. Caught a few movie with them and went to chompchomp with them too.
Met rynne last fri as well to catch up with her. Last minute plan to go over to it fair with her coz I was bored at home. I'm bored when classes ends late, and I'm bored when classes ends early. I'm hard to please. Singapore is too small. There's nothing to do, and nowhere to go. Sighz. Watched din tao with her too. Awesome movie. Went home at midnight and walked alone under the pouring rain. Shivered like hell and made me felt like crap. Scary, long and cold walk home. Was drenched inside out.
Met baobao after I woke up, which was sat. Finally got to go hai bin prawning to eat prawns and we went over to town for midnight movie too coz we think that we're too lifeless. Our life now practically revolves around home-school-home-school-home-school. Omg I hate this routine. Anyway I self declared holiday on thursday so it's now the june holidays all the way till july!!!!! YAY WOW FINALLY.
Oh crazy adventurous nights always happens with her around. I've-no-idea-how-we-missed-our-stop-and-end-up in red hill... So we end up walking for 40mins coz there wasn't any bus or train in service anymore. HAHAHA. When we came across 3routes to choose, we explored all 3 of them and only managed to find the right route at the 3rd try... At the end of the day, we still cabbed. Walking from red hill to town is just plain insane. LOOOL. Anyway the cab driver is really cute. Caught "the dictator", a hilariously retarded movie... Funniest thing wasn't the movie I guess. It was us having the idea of taking baobao's slippers to picture-slap people we dislike. *inside secret* DAMN LOL.
The existence of useless and dumb people is driving me insane if this continues on the long run. It's like, you're standing in the crowd, but yet you feel alone. So near, yet so far. Feeling perplexed emotions that sometimes eats me alive. Just like there's always two sides to each story, there's two sides of every person; the one side that we reveal to the world and the other that we keep to ourselves. Who we are, and who we pretend to be. To be in a constant battle against yourself, only finding out that you're your greatest enemy because you feel and have extreme opposite thoughts and feelings that's trying to tear you apart.
You know what, sometimes I find friendship, love and kinship over rated. At the end of the day, we only have ourselves to trust. Trust is the one thing that I can't afford. Maybe this world is just another planet's hell. Ever since then, I can feel everything seeping into my soul; the hate, the darkness, all of it. I don't care, but I care. Maybe I'm her, or maybe I'm her.
Ok, I officially hate blogger. I retyped this post thrice. Zzz. Couldn't decide on my post title either and change it for ten over times. Days been, okay. Finally done with 30 over pages of business marketing proposal... Days where you stay up late till midnight to complete work is, hell. One month ago or so, I've spent quite a few days with classmates. Caught a few movie with them and went to chompchomp with them too.
Met rynne last fri as well to catch up with her. Last minute plan to go over to it fair with her coz I was bored at home. I'm bored when classes ends late, and I'm bored when classes ends early. I'm hard to please. Singapore is too small. There's nothing to do, and nowhere to go. Sighz. Watched din tao with her too. Awesome movie. Went home at midnight and walked alone under the pouring rain. Shivered like hell and made me felt like crap. Scary, long and cold walk home. Was drenched inside out.
Met baobao after I woke up, which was sat. Finally got to go hai bin prawning to eat prawns and we went over to town for midnight movie too coz we think that we're too lifeless. Our life now practically revolves around home-school-home-school-home-school. Omg I hate this routine. Anyway I self declared holiday on thursday so it's now the june holidays all the way till july!!!!! YAY WOW FINALLY.
Oh crazy adventurous nights always happens with her around. I've-no-idea-how-we-missed-our-stop-and-end-up in red hill... So we end up walking for 40mins coz there wasn't any bus or train in service anymore. HAHAHA. When we came across 3routes to choose, we explored all 3 of them and only managed to find the right route at the 3rd try... At the end of the day, we still cabbed. Walking from red hill to town is just plain insane. LOOOL. Anyway the cab driver is really cute. Caught "the dictator", a hilariously retarded movie... Funniest thing wasn't the movie I guess. It was us having the idea of taking baobao's slippers to picture-slap people we dislike. *inside secret* DAMN LOL.
The existence of useless and dumb people is driving me insane if this continues on the long run. It's like, you're standing in the crowd, but yet you feel alone. So near, yet so far. Feeling perplexed emotions that sometimes eats me alive. Just like there's always two sides to each story, there's two sides of every person; the one side that we reveal to the world and the other that we keep to ourselves. Who we are, and who we pretend to be. To be in a constant battle against yourself, only finding out that you're your greatest enemy because you feel and have extreme opposite thoughts and feelings that's trying to tear you apart.
You know what, sometimes I find friendship, love and kinship over rated. At the end of the day, we only have ourselves to trust. Trust is the one thing that I can't afford. Maybe this world is just another planet's hell. Ever since then, I can feel everything seeping into my soul; the hate, the darkness, all of it. I don't care, but I care. Maybe I'm her, or maybe I'm her.