Friday, 23 September 2011. 1:46 am

Before I start my post, I would like to reply some of my tags here. Please be happy that I'm giving all the attention you want now.

nameee: your face is really flat.


-Aw, sweetie. Firstly I'm not wealthy enough to go for plastic surgery :) You flattered me. Secondly, I'm BORN THIS WAY, wutdafuck can I do? Thirdly, I've NEVER EVER said that I'm pretty for godsake. Fourth, are you mentally retarded? Instead of asking me why people are saying that I'm pretty, whydafuck can't you go find them out and ask them-.- Seriously? Hope you are born with a pretty perfect face, otherwise I would really advice you to take back your comments. Lastly, are you blind enough to see that I've low self esteem? Do you really need to comment on my looks to try to bring me down? Please find something better and more meaningful to do.

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Stupid people really do stupid things, say stupid things and ask stupid questions. Don't they? Well, firstly I would like to wish my lil' sister happy 11th birthday!!! ♥♥♥. Hehehe. Shall bring my sister out for movie this weekend if mommy allows. Oh yes, supposingly there's a video done by me, cia and bby. But that fantastic bby edit until no sound. Sorry :(


Hmmm, I will blog about things very randomly yeah, whatever that comes across my mind right now. Went over to Soul for robert's birthday 1 month ago, sucks pretty much. Clubbing is getting boring. Had a long chat with bby after that and accompanied cloud to clementi, then movie. The movie was about apes?? Pretty nice. Yeah.


Haven't been working recently and money just keep flowing out. Really have no idea how to survive as I grow up, will things get worse in 2012? Uhno, I'm sick of it. Right now, the only thing that can make me feel slightly better is food and shopping. I've been eating a lot and gaining fats on my tummy which... leads me to dieting. Been eating: taohuey, bah ku teh and xinwang. Shopping? Shopped hell' lot even though I'm not working. My closet's totally full and I've no choice but to put all my new clothes in another box. But wutdafuck? I still feel that I've no clothes to wear-__-


Been doing krazy things with bby as usual, meeting her almost everyday too. We got videoed by a fucking pervert for an hour and when we wanna confront him? HE RAN. LOL. YES, HE RAN AND HIDE. Pussymeow-_- Next? Reeve. Ciacia's ex boyf, treated her like shiat and now hide like a pussy behind his dad..... Oh another one, hey pussy I know you're fucking reading this post and please do enjoy to continue stalking me. Treated my bby like a piece of worthless shiat when she was with you? Telling us again and again that you want to change blablabla, you're very sorry. Eh hello? Go reflect on yourself seriously. Look who you're hiding behind of-.- Puhlease. Yes, your pua stunt pattern really imba, more than badminton. Zzz. All the guys, fuck yourself. Eat my shit. K, LOL.


Caught a few movies recently as well: Smurfs(9/10), little bits of heaven (6.5/10), friends with benefits (6.5/10), Johnny english reborn (8/10) and crazy stupid love (6.5/10). You know what? After watching so much of dramas and movies, I really start to envy the female leads in there. They always have a fairytale-liked ending, a happy ending I mean. The male leads are always sweet and nice to the female leads. Hah. Wait, but seriously? True love? Really? I don't know. Suck my ass.

Is it true that by investing time, effort and 100% feelings on someone, you'll eventually get what you deserve? Aw, no. Fuck, I really have no idea what I'm blabbering about. I miss going to the beach, yeah. I wish to have someone to love me. I wish that I do not have take precaution against practically everyone. I wish that I won't be hurt anymore. I wish that I do not have to pretend that idgaf and I'm happy. Or maybe something simpler? I wish that a car knocks me down tomorrow.


Know what I think hurts the most? Missing someone that's seating right next to you. Being treated as though you're his world and next moment he just ignore you like you're nothing. Getting replaced, a numerous time. Forgiving, just because you want that someone to stay in your life. Pretending that you're happy and all when you're not. Waiting for something but at the same time, that something is nothing. People treating you as 7-11, you're there for them 24/7/365 yet they just come, take and go, whenever they want. You feeling that you're not smart, not pretty, not understanding, not loved and all.  Crying like shit yet nobody knows and nobody is there, worst of all? You can't let anyone know all this shits. You can't show your weakness because they are gonna use it against you. Does it hurt when all this happens at the same time? Hell yeah, this is why I'm dying to die. Lol. Anyone understands this shit? I bet no one feels all this sucky feelings all at the same time.


I don't deny that I'm suicidal all the time when I'm alone at night. It sucks. I will have this strong urge to take a knife and stab myself. I'm not kidding neither am I exaggerating. I don't know how long I can endure with this shitty life. Scary thoughts that's been hunting me: What if I fail my exams and I can't go to poly/ite? What do I do? I no longer have that someone to rely on. You can't expect me to keep finding nights job to do right? At the age of 25, nobody would want me. Then what next? My future's so dark. And I think that it would be nice if I have someone with me and that's like impossible unless I'm willing to open up my heart again. Ok, fuck no.


Look at the title of this post. That's the fucking question that lingers around my mind every night. Who am I? The stupid, innocent, naive little girl? Someone who will trust that everyone's nice, nobody have bad motives whenever they're good to me and that I do not have to think so much about every single thing they say/do? Or, the bitch? My dark secrets might just scare the hell outta you. So yes, do you really think that you know me when I don't even know who I am right now?


Sorry for all this shitty posts. I'll blog in detail again once I feel less emotional and happier (probably won't happen). Sorry. I suck. So does my blog. Sorry to all my readers who're still reading my blog :') You guys may want to follow me at twitter because I'm super active there. Will blog again in a few days time???.... So kindly CLICK MY NUFFNANG ADS(SPAM AS MANY CLICKS AS YOU WANT) and leave any questions or smth at the tagboard? Please be nice. Thanks.


Ps:// I do know that I will look like a sore loser by posting my feelings out... but wuteva. I don't give a fuck. At least I look strong. xoxo

You people are the reason why I no longer share my feelings to any of you.  Fuck you, you and you and you. Fuck everyone:') Torn between my heart and brain. Sucks

psbyy: hmmm wats ur height and weight?
- Errrr, 43kg and 168cm?

Passerbyyyyy.: Hey, Im not a loyal reader of yours, but I think you are gettin' prettier sial! I see yr archives, you damn cute when you young la HAHAHA. Good old days uh~ Anyway, cheerup:) ^^
-Hey hi, oh that's very nice of you! :') Omg kwet?... I look ugly :( Thanks!!

passedby: Love is damn painful. Hopefully someday love will not be so painful anymore.
-I hope so too :(

Passerby .: Hi . (: . Do cheer up & post more . :D
-Hi there, I hope I will :)

randomnm: hhello you live in jurong area? :)
-Yes my dear :)

passbery: how you edit this photo? https://picasaweb.google.com/lh/photo/FSNwlv32qxSpdMVqcZliBuk0Y-c7n34JU7uW3d58ukA?feat=embedwebsite can teach us ? :)
- Hmmm, use picnik.com! Apply effects that you want on 1 of the pix, use the same pix again to change it to black&white. So it will be the same photo with 2 different kind of effects then you create a college~ put the photo side by side. :)

psb: ur lips very thick & u have chubby cheeks :/
-Please understand that I'm born this way. I don't want to look ugly either.

guess: do you know which blogshopp sells the cheapest geo lens ?
-Sorry I've no idea :/

hello: May I know where you trimmed your brows? :)
-I trimmed it myself sweetie, I think it's a waste of money to get it trimmed outside :/

Ydna: Girl Be Strong And nice To meet You Wanna be Friend ><
-Thanks, sure? ;)

:]: Cheer up! I hope things get better for you (:
-I hope so too...

Hello!: What makeup base are you using? ^^
-Poreputty. Some japan/korea brand. You can find them at watsons/john little!

hello: hey kailing ! I think you are not ugly at all. Have more confident in urself. I think you look prefectly great in centre parting, look like some hk star. Really, i have been reading your blog for long time. I hope you can go back to last time hw you will. Post more often. Stilll love reading your blog.
-Hey there, thanks for the comments. I will try alright, love ya :)

xoxo: hiie bebes may i knw what contect lens you wearing ?
-Errrr... which pix are you referring to?... I've a lot of contact lens x.x

Passerby: Hi , i wanna ask if the checkpoint tongue piercing is safe or not , can you reply me on my email please ? thnks (:
-Emailed you babe.

瘋鬼: whey kailing! so long no contact le! you centreparting v.pretty :B
-Yeah! I miss you a lot :(

psb: haha since you're free den do a tutiorial on how you edit your pictures. the first picture in ur post :D
- Hmmm maybe if more people are interested I will consider doing it :/? I don't want to do a tutorial and end up get judged by people, saying that I think I'm very popular :(

tomatos: HI! YOU LOOK SUPER AWESOME WITH CENTRE PARTING!!!!!! SERIOUS!:D
-That's very nice of you ^^ Thanks

Reader: Hi can i ask where u get your shoes, the one worn to USS? Thanks!
-Rubi!

Pby: i love your centre parting,esp the first pic!
-Hehe, xoxo. Thanks!

PB: YOU VEH CHIO (:
-Uhno, but thanks :)

Seize: You should seriously switch to centre parting, it looks helluva good on you.
-Really?... My friend says that i look like ghost!!! LOL

Akira: nice blog
-Thanks.

ss: hello
-Hi there~

Psb: Where did you bought the black spec in latest post?
-FEP.

pa$$er-by: I like the first picture, what's your top? CAn't see it clearly in the picture
-It's just a normal boyfriend tee that you can easily get from bugis/fep :) I included a leopardprints ribbon myself.

stalker: hi
-o_o hi? Your name very kwet :x


dummy: Woodlands still got tongue piercing ? Anyway where's the exact place ? Andd, you're pretty too. Lol. Where's the exact place for the tongue piercing ? Is it still there ?
-Yes. You've to take bus from woodlands bus interchange and alight at woodland checkpoint's busstop, cross the road and you'll see a old market or smth? You can then ask around where is the shop. I'm sure the people there will guide you :) Thanks for your compliments.

Jessi: Hello :) You're my friend's friend and this is kinda random but you're really pretty and you seem nice (: Stay strong and happy :) Nice people deserve to be happy. (:
-That's very sweet of you. Uhno, I'm not pretty.... I hope I can be happy too. I mean, who doesn't want to be happy :(? Thanks.

Hmm: Whats the name of the app you use for the msg theme? Btw you using htc right?
-Gosms. Er no, I use LG.

psb: where you do your nails?
I did it myself :)