The girl with Masquerade
Whispers
I lead, follow me
I can live without you now, I'm used to it. But, I just DONT WANT to. I want you here.
Saturday, 16 April 2011. 11:59 pm
Hello all, I'm gonna do a lil small update. Or maybe this shall be a tiny dairy entry for me? Please bear with it as it takes a lot a lot of courage for me to blog this....
Today's the 10 16th again, I wish it's a happy one to you. Clock ticking away now... 10more mins before today's 16th end and I'm rushing my post. All I thought and wished was about you being happy. Yeap, nothing more but you getting happiness. Leaving me for months yet still caring for me, painting the harsh reality to me yet I refuse to grow up. What else more can I ask from you? You're perfect in my eyes beebeebum, ♥. Always, always have been.
Bringing you so much troubles within this few short months, I felt so guilty about it. Yes I've disappoint you a million times with all my broken promises and judging you like the rest did. But after many days of reflection done, I really felt so speechless about myself. I will not smoke again, I will lessen my clubbing days to as low as possible and will drop you a note telling you if I'm going. I will not listen to other people's rumors and stories and judge you like they did...
I will try to be as strong as you expect me to be. With or without you, I vow to be a better kailing.
For you, for us, for all of us, I've finally gathered some courage to make up with the other girls. Now, I won't dare to say that I'll be the only girl loving you so much... but I dare to say that, my love for you won't be any lesser than them. I'll do anything for you, I'll exchange anything just for you. I never want to see/hear you cry again, it breaks my heart again into small pieces. I hope god would bless you with good health and let you be friends with happiness. I ask for nothing but this. Today's 16th is meaningful to me and yes, I feel.. ok. Although I'm not happy, but it doesn't mean I'm sad.
Our love didn't make the world go round, but our love made the ride worthwhile as it leaves very memorable memories. I will never forget you. For what I've done to you, I wish I can make it right. If time can be rewind, I swear I will not make any mistakes. I'm sorry. Whatever your choice is, please be happy. I love you, Cloudlam.
I won't be selfish again, to keep wanting to be your only.
Hello all, I'm gonna do a lil small update. Or maybe this shall be a tiny dairy entry for me? Please bear with it as it takes a lot a lot of courage for me to blog this....
Today's the 10 16th again, I wish it's a happy one to you. Clock ticking away now... 10more mins before today's 16th end and I'm rushing my post. All I thought and wished was about you being happy. Yeap, nothing more but you getting happiness. Leaving me for months yet still caring for me, painting the harsh reality to me yet I refuse to grow up. What else more can I ask from you? You're perfect in my eyes beebeebum, ♥. Always, always have been.
Bringing you so much troubles within this few short months, I felt so guilty about it. Yes I've disappoint you a million times with all my broken promises and judging you like the rest did. But after many days of reflection done, I really felt so speechless about myself. I will not smoke again, I will lessen my clubbing days to as low as possible and will drop you a note telling you if I'm going. I will not listen to other people's rumors and stories and judge you like they did...
I will try to be as strong as you expect me to be. With or without you, I vow to be a better kailing.
For you, for us, for all of us, I've finally gathered some courage to make up with the other girls. Now, I won't dare to say that I'll be the only girl loving you so much... but I dare to say that, my love for you won't be any lesser than them. I'll do anything for you, I'll exchange anything just for you. I never want to see/hear you cry again, it breaks my heart again into small pieces. I hope god would bless you with good health and let you be friends with happiness. I ask for nothing but this. Today's 16th is meaningful to me and yes, I feel.. ok. Although I'm not happy, but it doesn't mean I'm sad.