The girl with Masquerade
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I lead, follow me
Life sucks, and then you die. Yeah, i shoud be so lucky
Friday, 24 September 2010. 2:34 am
Life sucks, and then you die. Yeah, i should be so lucky. Why didn't i just walk away? Oh right.
Because I'm a idiot.
I'm attending court later, for my bpc case. Not sure whether i'll be fine or not, so i'm here for a post! What i really see from my life: Lie, lies & more lies. The higher the hopes, the bigger the disappointment. I really had enough & i couldn't stand it anymore. I really thought you guys loves me alot but...in the end you brainwashed me with lies! I still couldn't believe what i'm going thru right now. I didn't want to see all this happening, didnt even want to think & know about all this!
Frankly speaking, this is way too much for me. But, all this stuffs made me give up on people who aren't really worth it for me. I love my beebeebum, he's the one who standby me whenever i need him. The one who's willing to support me when my parents refused to. The one who constantly wiped away my tears, do silly faces & hugged me. Never did i expect him to be the guy who sacrifice for me, who loves me till the depts of the sea... I love you, alot more than the past. We'll last long, i'll get married to you, you'll support me :) **hook pinky fingers**
My dearest sister, irene. Another one who stood by me no matter what. We did all sorts of stupid yet fun things together. The one who's able to wait for me @ the interchange up to 2hours...the one who's willing to share $, food,cosmetics,accessories & clothes with me when i need it. The one who would rush down to my house when i'm upset. Really, I didn't expect myself to meet a good sister like her. I've never thought of that. Never.
This warm little space here records our memories together, the early days of us together. I'm thankful to both of you, that you guys made my empty life livable :) Also, happy advance 100th day with beebeebum!!! :* Iloveyou.
I'm so fucking disappointed...i..........feel so suicidal. Thanks for letting me know how much you love me & at least i know, i still have you around. But, i'm still terrified...why???? Bcos if i ever lose you, nobody will be there for me & i'll die. Die cause: Overwhelming sadness. Please keep ur promise & stay :(
Life sucks, and then you die. Yeah, i should be so lucky. Why didn't i just walk away? Oh right.
Because I'm a idiot.
I'm attending court later, for my bpc case. Not sure whether i'll be fine or not, so i'm here for a post! What i really see from my life: Lie, lies & more lies. The higher the hopes, the bigger the disappointment. I really had enough & i couldn't stand it anymore. I really thought you guys loves me alot but...in the end you brainwashed me with lies! I still couldn't believe what i'm going thru right now. I didn't want to see all this happening, didnt even want to think & know about all this!
Frankly speaking, this is way too much for me. But, all this stuffs made me give up on people who aren't really worth it for me. I love my beebeebum, he's the one who standby me whenever i need him. The one who's willing to support me when my parents refused to. The one who constantly wiped away my tears, do silly faces & hugged me. Never did i expect him to be the guy who sacrifice for me, who loves me till the depts of the sea... I love you, alot more than the past. We'll last long, i'll get married to you, you'll support me :) **hook pinky fingers**
My dearest sister, irene. Another one who stood by me no matter what. We did all sorts of stupid yet fun things together. The one who's able to wait for me @ the interchange up to 2hours...the one who's willing to share $, food,cosmetics,accessories & clothes with me when i need it. The one who would rush down to my house when i'm upset. Really, I didn't expect myself to meet a good sister like her. I've never thought of that. Never.
This warm little space here records our memories together, the early days of us together. I'm thankful to both of you, that you guys made my empty life livable :) Also, happy advance 100th day with beebeebum!!! :* Iloveyou.
I'm so fucking disappointed...i..........feel so suicidal. Thanks for letting me know how much you love me & at least i know, i still have you around. But, i'm still terrified...why???? Bcos if i ever lose you, nobody will be there for me & i'll die. Die cause: Overwhelming sadness. Please keep ur promise & stay :(