The girl with Masquerade
Whispers
I lead, follow me
Why I'm still holding on
Thursday, 4 March 2010. 10:53 am
"There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved..
That would only mean i dont have happiness in my life . "
Hai , no school today as i've gastric pain today . Spent like 60 bux just now .. on my consultation fees($30+) , Trim hair ($10) & mask($20) . I've a serious headache now :( I need to smile more i guess . Rightright , I'm so sick of my hair color now . *Sigh ..
Marshmallow brown / pink beidge hair with Yeeling soon , probably . Reextension for my hair , maybe even eyelash extensions , touchup on the stars ? Aw , i need to save lots of money & i've been spending money like flowing tap water :(
Blogshops 180+ bux , Shopping trips 150+ bux , Mask 50 bux , entertainment etc purposes 130+ bux , makeup etc 80 bux -.- , my culculation for feb&march . Worse , march is just the start . Look , I REALLY NEED A JOB!!!!! Intro ! Having no money is a headache . Gonna go Penisula for my touchup soon ! *Winks ;)
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"Friend" this word , no longer exist in me . I saw how realistic this "friends" can be . When they need ur help , they'll be good to you & when they dont need you , they'll just kick you away . Or worse , when you need them , they'll say "idontknow i dontknow la" & give you attitude as if you owe them a million dollars . They blame you for minor things & they'll make decisions that will benefit only themselves instead of both of you . They never ever realise thier mistakes . You? You tried to be friends with them even though they're being well-disliked & yet they never fails to backstab you .
No . I dont need a friend , neither do i need a close friend . Im fine being alone , im not scared of being alone . I'm just scared of being betrayed & backstab . Bye .
为什么总在失去后才懂得? , 才发现你对我最重要 . 能不能够让我们从来一遍 ? 是否对我还有相同感觉 ? 我不想要再对自己抱怨 , 再狼狈 . 能不能够让我们回到从前 ?.. 你说过要陪我走到永远 ..但你却说 抱歉 ..
Life's never been easy .. for me . Its always frustrating to see myself in this state when i actually could be better . I wasted energy , making myself go thru all this .. Blame myself . I have split moods right now . Sickness? lol .
:( :( :( :(
Should i just be a bad irritating girl infront of people ? :/ Or should i be myself .. no , im too weak . I need to put a strong front . i need to .
"There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved..
That would only mean i dont have happiness in my life . "
Hai , no school today as i've gastric pain today . Spent like 60 bux just now .. on my consultation fees($30+) , Trim hair ($10) & mask($20) . I've a serious headache now :( I need to smile more i guess . Rightright , I'm so sick of my hair color now . *Sigh ..
Marshmallow brown / pink beidge hair with Yeeling soon , probably . Reextension for my hair , maybe even eyelash extensions , touchup on the stars ? Aw , i need to save lots of money & i've been spending money like flowing tap water :(
Blogshops 180+ bux , Shopping trips 150+ bux , Mask 50 bux , entertainment etc purposes 130+ bux , makeup etc 80 bux -.- , my culculation for feb&march . Worse , march is just the start . Look , I REALLY NEED A JOB!!!!! Intro ! Having no money is a headache . Gonna go Penisula for my touchup soon ! *Winks ;)
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"Friend" this word , no longer exist in me . I saw how realistic this "friends" can be . When they need ur help , they'll be good to you & when they dont need you , they'll just kick you away . Or worse , when you need them , they'll say "idontknow i dontknow la" & give you attitude as if you owe them a million dollars . They blame you for minor things & they'll make decisions that will benefit only themselves instead of both of you . They never ever realise thier mistakes . You? You tried to be friends with them even though they're being well-disliked & yet they never fails to backstab you .
No . I dont need a friend , neither do i need a close friend . Im fine being alone , im not scared of being alone . I'm just scared of being betrayed & backstab . Bye .
为什么总在失去后才懂得? , 才发现你对我最重要 . 能不能够让我们从来一遍 ? 是否对我还有相同感觉 ? 我不想要再对自己抱怨 , 再狼狈 . 能不能够让我们回到从前 ?.. 你说过要陪我走到永远 ..但你却说 抱歉 ..
Life's never been easy .. for me . Its always frustrating to see myself in this state when i actually could be better . I wasted energy , making myself go thru all this .. Blame myself . I have split moods right now . Sickness? lol .
:( :( :( :(
Should i just be a bad irritating girl infront of people ? :/ Or should i be myself .. no , im too weak . I need to put a strong front . i need to .