Tuesday, 30 March 2010. 7:42 pm



Yeah right , my life is totally upside down ever since 27th Nov 09 . I lost all luv from the people that i cherish . One by one misunderstood me , one by one walk away , one by one h.u.r.t me ...... I couldnt help it but cry while im posting here ................ Craps , i know . Heartache .

If time could rewind ..when my parents trusts me , i got his luv , i have my sister's care&concern & we never drifted , my results are fairly good..how great that would be . Or perhaps its just plainly my fault for all this fucking shits , i couldnt blame anyone but myself . Whats with all this people saying so & so is ugly , so & so is disgusting , so & so is a shorty freak , so & so is stupid .. so & so ... Did anyone of you ever wondered how this words hurt people? Did you!? You mean you're perfect!? Or maybe you think they want to be so 'imperfect' ? Please . Worse , here you're badmouth-ing people & you , try to be friendly with certain peeps . Bullshits man .

I lost count of how long i've been unhappy or should i say .. how long i've never been happy ? Sounds nicer . I hate it when my body starts switching to 'auto moodswing' during nighttime , had no choice but to 'cooperate' with it . Having bad flashbacks in classes & no longer talk in school . I'm capable of stone-ing on my bed for hours , just to do some self reflection . I'm certainly not a good/close friend to be with , i guess thats all i can say .

I hate liars . I hate lying when i have to . I cant seem to see my future now & it looks completely dark . You used to tell me , i could be with you for life . Let's pray hard that you see this ? No , neither could i make myself hate you or any other people whom i cherish . 29th Aug 09 , the day i saw you . A year later , 29th Aug 2010 ..i hope to get better .

I'm still remorseful . 26th March 2010 , happy 7th month anni .. i would say . Yet , on the 27th .. my nightmare continues , 5th month that you're gone . Its always a dread to see that 26th & 27th is arriving srsly . Now , all i could say is i'm sorry that i've treated someone as ur replacement .. I couldnt help it either . I guess you're aware that i stalk ur fb etc . I did . Just wondering if you view my blog since you gave ur friends my url . Then you should know all the quotes im saying & that includes what wkl means .. dont you ?....

I guess i only need someone whom i can trust in , someone who wouldnt judge me , someone who wouldnt show me attitude , someone who shows me some care&concern ... Someone .. I'm not strong , neither am i weak .


Goodbye , w/luvs .
WKL .

It's always about feeling the pain .... How could i end it ???? Anyone ?????? I need a little more luv than a lil' bit . I need a little more help than a lil'bit .........................I'm getting more & more ..numb .....