The girl with Masquerade
Whispers
I lead, follow me
I prayed for you t come back , every day & night
Saturday, 28 November 2009. 12:12 pm
Readers , sorry for the time being my post will be v v v boring ttm . Time heals everything ? I wished so , or should i pray more for another better outcome ?.. Duh . Skipped 3meals ytd , & idk why . Headed t wedding dinner & i didnt eat much either . Was actually planning t stay @ home , cos i was extremely upset & moodless .. but seems like even god wants t force me out of my bloody house w that 3calls -.- So , i was like rushing & everything @ th last minute . Wiping my tears & make up <: Cabbed down t one of th orchard's hotel w huiru , her mom & grandma . Was chatting w Weizhen'Sist on the cab , she's strong . But at least , everything was not so cruel for her .. Sigh .
Huiru was like , wow-ing at the hotel . Kinda "royal" huhzxc? Funny thing , we actually ran t th toilet like more than 5times i guess ? Throughout the whole dinner -.- Thanks t huiru luh . I couldnt elaborate much for th post , bcos of some reasons . Ohyeah , we went t th dinner , not knowing who's wedding was it . Laughs .. That bloody huiru's extremely cold blooded . She wanted t see me cry & make me cry -.- She thinks having pity of me , is being cruel t herself . I remembered this clearly, crazy .
The dishes was not-bad , didnt ate much , so no comments . I was having the idea of : Drinking wine , & getting myself drunk t numb everything . Still dropped th idea , bcos grandma & huiru's mom doesnt allow -.- Heh . Still have my own ways <: Everything ended @ around 10plus , going 11pm . Trained home , we took the wrong train . Thanks t me , for being alert <: Then we manage t find out we took wrong train ^^v .. well actually no . Readers shld know , i've taken wrong train w him before .. so i was actually having flashbacks on the train . Therefore , i checked whether we took the right train -.- Then true enough , we took the wrong one .
Tears alr formed around my eyes on the train .. when i actually listened t tht song . Set it t my 1st blogsong :D Bcos , i still remembered how many times you sung that in my ears , i used t hate tht song ttm ! But now .. no . Bused home etc , reached home @ 12plus going 1 . Chatted w Wesly'Dumb over the phone last night for around 2h plus . Thanks alot , though i still cried over the phone ..
Checked through my post , it seems like whatever i do , no matter where i go .. i still will have memories of you . Flashbacks kept coming back . Maybe , you're right . We need a break , or maybe you're just finding a excuse .. However , i still wish you'll be back aft you have enough break .. & not going back t her . How could you have feelings for both ?.. Though you claimed that her's was stronger .. *Sigh
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I still remembered tht i was actually considering of getting inked . Talk about this t him , kelly , sophia etc . Set my mind now , maybe i shld really get one . A star , a word of 'hatred' in chinese , scorpion or a spider ? Waist, behind or infront ? Maybe next year's march or june will be a not-bad date <: Not sure yet . Sigh .. & im still thinking back how you used t force me drop th idea & threathening me that you would put the whole body , if i put one . But now .. different story ? Or maybe , we still have a chance t get back ? .. Tell me why .
I'm not alright , im lying . Someone , something , make me forget him .. though we still have a chance .. but i guess most probably no . I should let you go ? Or not ? Seriously , you're a vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv good guy . Why .. you asked me either keep th couple tee & earpiece or throw them away ?.. Why?! I thought there's at least a lil chance that we'll patch back ?.. I know , maybe you're lying .. you dont luv me alr . Till today , i've skipped 5meals .. & you ? Are you living better than me/ without me ?.
吃不能吃 , 睡不能睡 . 没有了你 , 全都不对 ..
笑不能笑 哭不敢哭,人不像人 鬼不像鬼 ..
朋友都说这 不过失恋 ,但我却连呼吸都胆怯 ..
能不能不爱了?.. 因为爱太痛了..我痛得快死了.. 却无法把你忘了.. )':
Readers , sorry for the time being my post will be v v v boring ttm . Time heals everything ? I wished so , or should i pray more for another better outcome ?.. Duh . Skipped 3meals ytd , & idk why . Headed t wedding dinner & i didnt eat much either . Was actually planning t stay @ home , cos i was extremely upset & moodless .. but seems like even god wants t force me out of my bloody house w that 3calls -.- So , i was like rushing & everything @ th last minute . Wiping my tears & make up <: Cabbed down t one of th orchard's hotel w huiru , her mom & grandma . Was chatting w Weizhen'Sist on the cab , she's strong . But at least , everything was not so cruel for her .. Sigh .
Huiru was like , wow-ing at the hotel . Kinda "royal" huhzxc? Funny thing , we actually ran t th toilet like more than 5times i guess ? Throughout the whole dinner -.- Thanks t huiru luh . I couldnt elaborate much for th post , bcos of some reasons . Ohyeah , we went t th dinner , not knowing who's wedding was it . Laughs .. That bloody huiru's extremely cold blooded . She wanted t see me cry & make me cry -.- She thinks having pity of me , is being cruel t herself . I remembered this clearly, crazy .
The dishes was not-bad , didnt ate much , so no comments . I was having the idea of : Drinking wine , & getting myself drunk t numb everything . Still dropped th idea , bcos grandma & huiru's mom doesnt allow -.- Heh . Still have my own ways <: Everything ended @ around 10plus , going 11pm . Trained home , we took the wrong train . Thanks t me , for being alert <: Then we manage t find out we took wrong train ^^v .. well actually no . Readers shld know , i've taken wrong train w him before .. so i was actually having flashbacks on the train . Therefore , i checked whether we took the right train -.- Then true enough , we took the wrong one .
Tears alr formed around my eyes on the train .. when i actually listened t tht song . Set it t my 1st blogsong :D Bcos , i still remembered how many times you sung that in my ears , i used t hate tht song ttm ! But now .. no . Bused home etc , reached home @ 12plus going 1 . Chatted w Wesly'Dumb over the phone last night for around 2h plus . Thanks alot , though i still cried over the phone ..
Checked through my post , it seems like whatever i do , no matter where i go .. i still will have memories of you . Flashbacks kept coming back . Maybe , you're right . We need a break , or maybe you're just finding a excuse .. However , i still wish you'll be back aft you have enough break .. & not going back t her . How could you have feelings for both ?.. Though you claimed that her's was stronger .. *Sigh
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I still remembered tht i was actually considering of getting inked . Talk about this t him , kelly , sophia etc . Set my mind now , maybe i shld really get one . A star , a word of 'hatred' in chinese , scorpion or a spider ? Waist, behind or infront ? Maybe next year's march or june will be a not-bad date <: Not sure yet . Sigh .. & im still thinking back how you used t force me drop th idea & threathening me that you would put the whole body , if i put one . But now .. different story ? Or maybe , we still have a chance t get back ? .. Tell me why .
I'm not alright , im lying . Someone , something , make me forget him .. though we still have a chance .. but i guess most probably no . I should let you go ? Or not ? Seriously , you're a vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv good guy . Why .. you asked me either keep th couple tee & earpiece or throw them away ?.. Why?! I thought there's at least a lil chance that we'll patch back ?.. I know , maybe you're lying .. you dont luv me alr . Till today , i've skipped 5meals .. & you ? Are you living better than me/ without me ?.
吃不能吃 , 睡不能睡 . 没有了你 , 全都不对 ..
笑不能笑 哭不敢哭,人不像人 鬼不像鬼 ..
朋友都说这 不过失恋 ,但我却连呼吸都胆怯 ..
能不能不爱了?.. 因为爱太痛了..我痛得快死了.. 却无法把你忘了.. )':
Huiwen;: heyy,cheer up ! dun be so sadd,no point . u wan to be sad everidae meh?i suppose no.learn how to let go,dun sae u cant.u can,if u hav determination./b>
-Not i dont have th determination , is i cant bear t . Maybe being sad everyday is not a bad idea .
anonymous: hi, cheerup. i know its hard, but i hope you'll feel better as time goes by.:)
-But i felt even sad .. Anw thanks :)
Maddie: Sist, many people care about you, do try to think positive and feel better <3
-He destroyed every hope of mine .. Tell me how t be positive .. Anw thanks :)
wei zhen: i did not forgotten hi m yet-.-" he is a ****er. even after i break up with him, he cant be washed out of my mind
-But at least you're strong ?:) Stronger than me ..
CelineLeong's: Hello sister (:Cheerup alright !!
-Hello sist . Thanks , i'll try :)
Rosslynn.: Sist, cheer up aye.
-Thanks sist :) I'll try t .
.Boombah. Jean.: (YYYYYYYYYYYYY) I win :D
-Hah :)
Hojingci.: Cheerup sist. There's always a rainbow aft the rain :)
-Maybe .. Thanks sist :)
♥FıōиaĞ: Xinggan , Cheerup alright :D . I'm sure you can be strong .:)
-I'll try :) No , im not strong . Tired of acting strong .