Thursday, 26 November 2009. 9:31 pm

Hello readers , sorry for not updating much lately .


25th Nov 09 .


I remembered everything about 25th nov 09 v clearly , its a terrible day for me . I swear . Woken up by Simin'Hubby sms & ask me go down nicholas house early in th morning . Pulled myself out of my cozy bed & prepare t go . Trained & bused down t his house , slack etc etc till 5 . Trained down t Bugis meet Yeeling up for awhile , Shuwei came afterthat . Bloody Yeeling ps me , go home . Was aimlessly walking w Shuwei , as we've no idea where t go . Both of us was moodless , shag .


So , trained down t chinese garden for a walk . Sat down on a bench & see th sun set down etc . Just nice , i saw a couple w a child playing @ th patch of grass infront of us . Scenery surrounding us became darker & darker .. Thinked through alot there . Pretty good place huh . Teared there , for hours . The tears kept dripping down , like how my heart bleeded . You comforted me , i pushed you away . I've no idea why . You wiped away my tears & asked me t stop crying .. You gave me a cold shoulder afterthat . I know why , im sorry . & you must believe , cos i only luv you . Only you , no one else . Sorry . Seating there moodlessly , till 8plus , went home .


Had a conflict w parents afterthat , whatever . Cried in my room for hours , till the next day .. 26th Nov 09 . Can imagine how swollen was my eyes ? idk what happened t you , i know you can give me happiness . Why are you giving sadness instead ?.. If you could understand me , better .. Or maybe we've alr ended .. on our 2nd month , so coincidence huh ? Exactly 2 months . & here iam , writing how much we've gone through & tearing again & again infront of my labtop . One by one leaving me . Wtf have i done ? Ppl dont crap la , all you all know is t say cheerup blbalblah , when actually you ps me , so many times .


26th Nov 09 .


Hi , i've just woken up from a nightmare last night . Didnt i ? Prepared everything & trained down t nicholas house t meet everyone . Sorry for making Simin , Kelly & cheryl wait so long yah ? ps x.x Slack etc again . Funnyeh , i canot walk in a straight line -.- I still have t hold on t smth & walk back into nicholas house . How useless , why i became like this i wondered . I'm not weak , or maybe all this while i've been acting strong . Slack all th way again , talk coc etc . Went t nearby coffeeshop w th girls , damn simin can . She kept lisiao th aunty -.- :


Aunty , what is mee pok ? Mee pok looks like how ? Can show me anot ? I want this , no no i want this . Th chilli hot anot ah ? I dont want add everything . Eh wait wait , that means my noodles v plain lor ? Then she asked th aunty help add chilli again -.- Damn joker . Walked around th neighbourhood , searching me a certain brand of glue . Zzz . Holyshyt . Still remembered a couple of people there abit sehseh , did alot funnyeh thing . Seriously , lmao . Oh , bryan was kinda drunk . Zzz , make me laugh like shyt .


Slacked till 5plus , headed back home . No idea why , i cried in th train . Like what ? Eh you all never see people cry before huh ? Stare stare stare . Yeah , here iam tearing now ..

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Heart , i luv wsw didnt i ? Alot .  Do i deserve all this ? Being & acting high in the day , & in th night .. curling myself @ a corner of my bed tearing .. till i fall asleep . Thats me . This is a fatal blow . Blame myself , for being such a bitch . Grab that chance , contact me .. I dontwant a slient break , i dontwant him t fade feelings for me . Its impossible right ? it wouldnt be so fast . no wouldnt .

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